How are you supposed to feel when you see your ex and his new boyfriend in pictures and they look perfect together, better than you did with him, and you start feeling happy for him, but at the same time the jealousy sets in and you realize that your still lonely, and that he was the butt in the relationship and you deserve to be the one who finds someone, at the very least before they do...It's an awful feeling, and I should not be thinking bad things about a happy couple. I should be happy and only happy for the situation....
I have not completely given up hope that I will find someone at some point later in life. My problem with relationships (especially gay relationships) is the few people who give you the time of day are the ones who want just one thing...
I would love to find the one, and with any new relationship I get involved with, I find that I am the one making 95% of the effort, and it's exhausting. I have given up (for now anyways) on actually finding someone worth my time...So I decided to work, and work, and work some more. Keep myself so busy that I dont even have to worry about a relationship...I can't be let down by a prick, or a loser.. Any sort of personal life is out of the question....One small problem...No time for a personal life...
This is just me bitching about a problem there is no real answer to, and the comments will all be the same.."Think positive," "you'll find someone when you least expect it," "everything will work out, "don't work so much." <<~~ Things I don't want to hear...
Seems more and more than having any sort of morals when it comes to relationships is so unheard of...The idea of getting to know someone, and spending one on one time with someone seems to be a weird thought to most...
I work hard, I know what I want and refuse to settle for less. My standards are high but I know I deserve the things...
BLAH BLAH BLAH enough...I sound retarded...
